Diminishing Friendship

Hello everybody,The more self aware I become and the more I learn about egos and how they work, is the more distant I become to most people who are unaware of the path I've chosen.I have a friend of eleven years. We have called eachother bestfriends ever since, yet these past few years I have changed a lot. Learning about egos of lust and craving inner change and inner peace has had me rejecting many invitations to parties. In the past I would have thrived to go to all these parties, but not anymore.At first, I wanted to purposely put myself in situations were many egos are bursting so that I could give myself a hard challenge to make me stronger. So I would go to some parties, and everytime, I would fight off so many egos that would come up and be very disappointed to realize how many people seem to be living off of egos. I'll come home tired, feel like I learned a lot about how egos work, but be so drained and feel like I got more damage than knowledge.But now, I feel like it is time to stop putting myself in the middle of the mess of egos because I think I've learned all I can from doing that,... now it is time to meditate upon them more intensively.So tonight, I was invitied to my "best friend's" birthday party. It is going to be held at some club in San Francisco. I told my friend I was planning to go, even though I was dreading the battle of egos. I was hoping for some kind divine message to force me to not go. I started to chant O, then my "bestfriend" called me and told me that at the club there is a dress code and I would have to wear hi-heels.That was it! I told her NO. I would never wear hi-heels!So I am not going to the party. What relief! From this experience, I also learned that it is time for me to really stand up for myself on this path and cut out all the unnecessary stuff so that I may become more clear.Thanks for reading,peace,-Silvia