My issue is that I?ve been jumping into lucidity by getting myself into situations where people are shooting at me. I?m terrified and the only way to get out of the scenario is to fly away, which is what I usually do and as soon as I begin to fly I realize I?m dreaming and then become lucid.Then one dream I had a month or two ago took place at an outdoor concert. I was walking through the parking lot to leave when I noticed some swat or special force type characters huddled along a line of cars. It was dark and I couldn?t make out what they were doing but I figured something unsavory was taking place and that they were going to bust some ?bad people.? Then I realized that swat was all over the parking lot and had actually cornered off quite a few blocks. My first instinct was to get out of the way of whatever was happening. I heard a rumble coming from behind me. It was a bulldozer with its front scoop removed and in its place was a plexus-glass capsule that was segmented into sections. In each section there were people who had been detained. This struck me with such fear that I didn?t move until a small blazing line of bright white fire flew passed me and then I heard a gun shot. Swat had begun to shoot at people. I started to run and as has happened in the past I tried to fly to get away; as I got ten feet off the ground I could see over all the cars. There were swat all over the place with their super technologically advanced tools and machinery. One swat member began firing at me narrowly missing my head. I immediately fell to the ground knowing that this was a warning shot and that I was not allowed to flee. However, I ran as fast as I could across the street which for some reason was off limits to their activities. This shot was specifically telling me, "You won't become lucid if I have anything to do with it." This dream was so disturbing that I felt as if I was being beaten by my psyche. I felt as if the mind police have won. They thought disgust me. Well last night I had a similar dream only this time I don?t remember much except that I believe I was trying to flee again and I wasn?t going to let them stop me. Their fire white bullets screamed passed me as I began to ascend then one struck me searing my flesh and as I fell back to the ground another struck me and then another. I believe I might have died after that. Then in the darkness of death I began to move in and out of lucidity but if I remember correctly I didn?t really achieve it. At least at this moment I don?t believe I did.    These dreams are really disturbing. I can?t tell you how many times I fall asleep only to be shot at and while sometimes I overcome them and move into lucidity, it is not the path that I want to take. The fact that I?m suddenly being shot out of the air by these high powered machines is that much more insane because in my dreams they are to many, to fast, and to accurate to escape from. I feel like I'm battling myself for some unknown reason. Here are some of my thoughts on it.    I feel trapped.   I?m not getting past these guns   Why are there so many guns in my dreams?   What?s with the twisted hostility?   It could be a test I?m administering to my self. Why?   Yes I do feel trapped in my waking life by my own doing of course. I?ve been shot at before and killed when I wasn?t feeling trapped. And while those were strange they weren?t on the same level as these dreams.   I get frustrated with myself for not recognizing that I?m dreaming while I?m dreaming. That is I will literally be in a dream that has turned sour and I will know that I?m dreaming yet I?m not getting beyond that. For example in the dream I had last night I realized I was dreaming and that I had to try to fly no matter that I was being shot at. I said to my self, ?This is a dream so fly, run, get out of here and don?t worry about being shot. Since you know you are dreaming you won?t get shot and if you do you won?t be hurt.? I end up getting shot. And it hurts. I can still feel the sting.   Then today I think I felt weird all day, however, since I sat down to write, this dream from last night resurfaced and the act of remembering it has eased my mind a little.   I guess I should pose a question to those who have read this far. Here it is. What do you think is going on here? Why are these particular scenarios so disturbing? And why has my mind stepped up the difficulty of the game? (Most of my lucid dreams are not started in this manner; however this method has become more prevalent in the last year.)