Ruben Caballero

Ruben’s Biography

I always wondered why I was here and what was the overall purpose of life. Nothing seemed to give an adequate answer. It was as if everyone just believed what others said, our parents, society and the media. As I grew up I slightly accepted the idea that there was nothing more to life than fulfilling my desires and becoming rich and famous.

In high school I noticed that I was controlled by different inner states such as anger, pride, lust, jealousy and greed. My parents told me: "that's just part of your genes", but I refused to except that. I came across some books in high school regarding the power of the mind and how to use the law of attraction as a means to getting what I desired. This would utilize techniques such as affirmations and visualization to make what I wanted materialize. I tried to use this information to change these inner states, but it was only temporary and the feelings would resurface in other situations. These approaches did not tackle the root of the problems. Back then, I was into rap music and I would often think about how happy I would be if I won a "rap competition" for example, but once it materialized, the fulfillment seemed so fleeting; it wouldn't stay with me. So I either kept dreaming about the past (standing on stage and everybody cheering), or I dreamed about the future and what I wanted to do next.

Either way this way of being did not make sense to me; I wasn't happy and I still did not understand the meaning of life. Everything seemed so fleeting, events would come and ago without any lasting peace and the feeling of being "happy" was always dependent on external circumstances.

Fueled by something unknown, I kept searching and asking about the purpose of life! One day I noticed my mother getting angry with me and as she was yelling she said: "Ruben! Don't make me forget myself!". Right there something rang true in me. It seemed that all my mistakes in life were linked to this aspect of forgetting myself in which I would do very horrible things and later regret them. Holding onto this understanding and yet without really applying it, I continued my search. Later, I had a friend who had an 'out of body experience', but he did not understand what he had experienced at the time. Then another day he told me it was called "Astral Projection" and that he seemed to be able to do it at will. I was shocked! I decided that if I really wanted to know what life was about, this would be the avenue I would need to explore. I searched everywhere for information on astral projection. I found some information, but there was just too many ideas and different techniques given from different sources. It made it very difficult to find a focus and to understand how it really worked.

I kept 'knocking' though, and a year later after everything seemed to fail and nothing was working, a friend hinted me to a free course on astral projection downtown in Toronto, Canada. I took the course and found very quickly that the information given struck a chord in my heart. I practiced and practiced, until finally I would experience what was being taught in the course such as: astral projection, self-discovery and finding peace in the present moment. All these tools tied into the understanding of self remembrance that I picked up earlier in life. I was also able to change my circumstances in life, by observing my inner states and learning to stay in self awareness. My understanding about life, finally began to increase the more I practiced. This understanding did not come from reading or hearing ideas from others but by the direct application of the tools I was taught. I was finally learning, and the source was from within.

Now I am here trying to share these tools with the rest of the world, as I continue my quest for inner-knowledge and I hope that others can do the same.