Feeling of resposibility spoils my OBE

Feeling of resposibility spoils my OBE

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Mon, 10/06/2008 - 12:34
Currently

Join Date: 2005-10-30
Forum Posts: 212

Well finally I have made progress for conscious OBE. I guess each person does well with one technique or another. I have return my efforts to make it happened and was very close as always with out any progress so close yet so far away. Finally I have applied something that I have just recently read about. It was Hindu perspective on alchemy, especially this quote: "Consciousness becomes enlightened with the rising energy". This was reference to alchemy. Well I have decided that I help this energy to rise with a technique that I have read from other book (title skips my awareness right now) where the author described how her spirit guides teach her to energize her body: She was suppose to visualize solid tube of brilliant white light and place it over her body. So I have visualized this tube and slowly pulled it up from my feet up over my head when the pulsing (sound and feeling of my heart beats) on my back became very strong, at that point it happened. sound and sensations ended and the room I found my self in became brighter and I started to see images on the wall, not my place though. I have seen my son sleeping there, not his room either. But never the less positive experience, but short one.
I did not wished the light to wake up my son, so I tried to turn off ceiling light with a pull chain, when the chain just falls off and me quickly realizing my responsibility for it and the need to fix, that stimulated the mind and there I go - waking up. It seems that most of my experiences always end this way - the mind starts to analyze the problem of the scenario. The lesson here is to ignore the problems you encounter and keep on investigating the environment with detachment.

There has been many instances where my lucid dreams were ended by simple feeling of responsibility.

So what techniques do you use to overcome this?

I have looked at the source of responsibility and came to see that there is two ways to be responsible:
1) is responsibility through the ego - pride - fear
2) is the responsibility that comes through the essence - love

The first one acts and is motivated by the fear of consequence and fear of failure, while the second acts out of love and need of the other - making one self available to serve. That is a big contrast, until I started to look for positive value of responsibility I could not admit that the feeling of responsibility I have is ego of pride motivated, so I was holding on to it as I had no other option available to my consciousness.

So what ego is hold you back from really good experience?

OBEs and lucid dreams are such a great tools to see where I am and what I need to work on.

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Wed, 10/08/2008 - 02:55
Apakhana

Join Date: 2005-01-26
Forum Posts: 1043

I know about what you mean, we get distracted by things we think we need to do at the moment that we hold more important than trying to practice astral travel.

You've made some good observations.

"So what ego is hold you back from really good experience?"

- probably excitment. Not probably, but for sure....

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Wed, 10/08/2008 - 07:43
Vadim

Join Date: 2004-11-30
Forum Posts: 2909

Thanks a lot for sharing Currently.
Interesting investigations...and I find useful the way you presented it too.

"So what ego is hold you back from really good experience?"

Mental chatter, starting to think right after experiencing, sinking into mental world...

"OBEs and lucid dreams are such a great tools to see where I am and what I need to work on."

So true!