It's been a while

I think you might be surrounded by negative energies. Just a thought.

Hi Lazzitha, Welcome back!

Only you can really interpret your dreams. However being in a classroom usually indicates that we are being taught something by spiritual beings, it's important to look at our behaviour and what we are being taught in this sort of dream.

When we are bogged down in depression and low states we are overwhelmed by negative energies. (But I can't tell you that this is what your dream meant)

I think you answered your own question. "I have been away from the site, and unfortunatley completely unaware of myself for the past year."

Hang in there Lazzitha, use what you have learnt from this site. Being in forums can help to center yourself around the spiritual so I would encourage you to do that. The next round of courses will begin in a month or so, but there's no reason why you can't start making the spiritual work your focus today :) After all, this work is the only thing that can eliminate the causes of negativity and misery within.

Something I always find is a good reminder, I can't recall the quote precisely, is that in life, when we forget about the spiritual, when we put other things before it, it's not that the spiritual has become less important, it's that we've stopped being able to see how important it actually is.

This work comes alive with efforts. With willpower and persistence. We can come out of our lethargy, we can overcome negativity and low states.

Much strength Lazzitha, and all the best
You can do it!

"in life, when we forget about the spiritual, when we put other things
before it, it's not that the spiritual has become less important, it's
that we've stopped being able to see how important it actually is."

wow... this really hits home.
Thank You.

I was actually just thinking about how when you push all this out of your life things gradually stop happening - dreams, purposeful obe, being sensitive - and I was begining to wonder if those things only happen because I was focused to much on them? Are these things really important or was I making it important?

I think that's also why when I started seeing 11 again I knew that it really is important. I hadent been thinking about the spiritual in a long time and yet there it was... like a little reminder of what I am supposed to be doing.

I want to start working on my awareness again but I find that things at work are so crazy and busy I dont have time. I can't find a balance between my personal life and work. This is something I am going to make a conscious effort to work on.

Thank you for your replies.

Hi Lazzitha,

Welcome back. Just like you I had lapses in my efforts on the work. And every time I was trusted back into it I had to start again from the beginning with awareness. It is never easy to start from the beginning, but before you know it, your practices become stronger and your will have increased, because now you understand how hard it actually is to get back.

The best place to start is at home with awareness. Be patient as nothing comes overnight. Soon your efforts will be evident even on stressful job and your work will become less stressful as a result of this effort. You might even see things that you were not able to see before, because the egos have been expressing them selves with out a leash. Thus you have new affirmation that they are there and will not stop until you learn how to diminish and finally eliminate them.

I wish you much strength in your efforts. God bless.

Wishing you all a great spiritual morning.

hi Lazzitha,

in the book authored by Belzebuub there is a kabalistic interpretation there given for dreams related to number, and as it is often said if nothing helps only the dreamer alone can interpret it, you can start by analyzing the current thread of events in your life or you can pray to the Divine Mother to show you what your dream could possibly mean. It could be related to geometric pattern or perhaps your geneology, who knows?

best of luck.
Yara

Hey Lazzitha,

Those are interesting observations. From my small experience, If we ignore the divine, experiences stop. We can't ignore those we are trying to walk towards.

I don't think you can place too much importance on the spiritual, because when all is said and done, its the only thing that really matters.

When we are putting in great efforts, the divine see this and we are given help, in dreams and in life. Often we just do not understand the help, or understand how to receive it. I was given the analogy once that its like a thirsty blind person being given water, but they cannot see it, so they keep asking for it... It can feel like this sometimes but with continuous applied efforts things can become more clear and we can see what it is we need to do.

I can relate to the awareness being difficult when things are hectic. However the work takes place outside of time. It is here, now. There's no need to put off working towards enjoying the peace of the moment, things are actually easier to do when aware. It's possible to be really busy, and not feel stress :)

Belzebuub writes about the egos that say "I'm too busy to be aware." These are actually very harmful, they can stop the work from taking place. Seeing the number 11 is very interesting, either way its great that you've made a conscious focus back on the spiritual.

I am unsure if you have done the Gnostic Wisdom course or not Lazzitha, but with the keys taught on that course, real inner change is possible. Building the foundations with awareness and self observation is vital though.

All the best with your conscious effort Lazzitha, may we all make strong, revolutionary conscious efforts!!

Hi Lazzitha,

The number 11 could be a coincidence, its hard to say though it sounds peculiar.

Its funny how we come and go with this sort of thing in our lives but it seems like your consience is asserting itself and pushing you towards spiritual things.

I guess the only way you'l really know is to take up the work and prove things for yourself.

Have you taken any of the courses offered here?

All the best
Jared

Welcome back, Lazzitha. I can relate to getting off track. It is great that you found your way back...Very interesting about the number 11 :)

One thing to remember is how simple it really is to be aware. It is really a matter of remembering where we are, what we are doing, and paying attention to the five senses. It shouldn't take time away from your schedule, rather it typically saves time because it can prevent us from making mistakes and helps us to do things correctly and efficiently (the first time).

Please feel free to keep us updated. It can be challenging getting back into the practices, but you have a lot of support here.

Take care,

Gabrielle

Great to have you back Lazzitha!!!!

I think you have had some peitty spectacular replies so far so I don't have much more to add then this.

Even when we are not actively doing the work, learning is still taking place. Whether that learning being a greater understanding of the mundane and pain of normal life or just the realization of a stronger spiritual desire.

Either way you have learnt something to make it back here. Be conscious of the strength that you have. Many leave but not all come back.

Lovely to have you here and as the warm support of the online community have already indicated. If you need any help don't be afraid to throw up a post...or several.
:-)

Wishing you peace and strength,
Adam.

Thank you everyone for the comments.

It is always nice to know that I am not alone in this journey.   

:)