entropy

HI Yara.

I went through a similar period, it lasted for a year, and I had about one astral experience at that time. It was horrible, but it didn't end by itself.

I tried doing other practices, other than the astral ones, such as mantras, then I introduced a daily concentration/visualization exercise. This gave me strength and I slowly started getting out of entropy. Then, I began astral practices again, but for short periods of time, putting a strong emphasis on relaxing properly and starting the practice with concentration.

So, perhaps a similar approach could help. It's important to be gradual about it, and avoid forcing things. Perhaps you can try different mantras, or different exercises, or take more awareness walks (if you're familiar with them), etc. Just try making things a bit diverse, and you'll accumulate more strength.

All the best,
Matija

That peroid can last years for me actually.
It is so sporadic to me that an enormous amount of time can lapse before I get another really good one, not just lucid dreams that I wake up half way out of.

The first 2 years I had a few astral experiences, then it finished. So I just concentrated on the ego job mainly, only trying sometimes.
I asked the Divine for reasons in dreams, which I got some symbolic answers.

It is hard, also cause ap was the motivation for me.
By holding on the innerwork and symbolic dreams, the willpower increases, (maybe even more).
ALso as egos get smaller, I feel better.

All the strength,

Peter

thank you friends, what really happened was i shifted my interest from APing to Ego work, now i am really striving to find the balance. i don't know if this is good or bad maybe both, but i rarely feel neither too HIGH which means i inclined to be artistic and alive or LOW when its a struggle for me to function normally in life. I carry on with my practices just the same like you Matija, though in my case i think i subsconsciously shut the astral door behind me. I don't know why this is so, maybe deep within me i harbor some sadness for a brother who is not staying with us anymore, this brother is always up to no good and im always the one who discover him and if i can help it i don't give him away and try to protect him in the past. But last time i did not cover for him, in fact it was through me (quite by accident) my folks found him out and it was decided he must leave home. Since then he and I didn't communicate to each other, i stood by my folks decision because i agree it is the best. I, of course, sometimes worry for him.... Sorry guys for pouring out to you my domestic problems. I just had moments when my mind functions like my OS - window vista.. through it i see a looking glass and different avenues to explore some vivid, some grey, and some green. i'm confused whats real or what's not real. I guess the only way is to find out. Yeah im hoping this entropy won't last very long.

I'm sorry to hear about the problems you're having. Those can often take us away from the spiritual, as all worries and attachments we feel will not only drain us of our energy, but will seem so important, that the spiritual, including astral projection, may seem insignificant.

This too is a part of entropy. The important thing is to keep struggling. It'll often seem that the exercises have no effect, and that it is all useless (sometimes we might even think that we're not allowed to project, or that we've somehow destroyed that ability), but it is not. Just do your exercises to be better at them, and eventually you'll find a new hope.

Doing much psychological work should help your astral practices, not hinder them. However, it is easy to let the astral slip if you stopped doing your practices each evening.

Take care,
Matija