Coping with egos

Posted January 28th, 2008 by chivasilop

Interesting, painful and provocative is the journey we started.
Last night, I was served with a situation where I saw all egos trying to run wild.
I noticed them as they tried to come out like a storm and cloud my perception of reality.
I continued eliminating them yet I saw them banging on my hearts door with fury and persistence.

I saw again but more vividly the material that covers us.

I kept silent, didn't express anything verbally until I manage to balance all centers even for a while.
One thing that I have concluded is that thoughts and emotions can be eliminated. Words and actions don't as they have power and when they are manifested they cannot change.
I think that this is one aspect of being silent.

I tried to cope with all this negative storming with meditation at night and try to pose questions to receive answers.
I had some results yet I am not sure enough and this needs more investigation.

I try to stay in a self-observing situation in order to balance centers and clear my perception.

I found that feelings like pride, anger, sadness when viewed, even with in a situation like the one I experienced, offer tons of knowledge. When the first shock of intrusion was blocked, it was a great opportunity for me to see where I am standing. I mean I declared that my confidence and clarity of what we do gets stronger, yet yesterday I wondered, "what if somehow all visible states of what you think already achieved somehow are assaulted?". What happens when your faith is stormed? What makes you keep going? How do you find the road again?"
I do not have answers yet. But I know now a few things. Attacks will be there and I must learn from them. Egos are there dressed in many cloths and friendly "faces". Pride does not let you see, learn and move forward. Once I see an obstacle I must explore why and what I can learn from it and not stay in the obstacle.

Often we think we know, yet (again) we know nothing. When we found ourselves to say "we know" knowledge procedure stops.
However I think it is also good to ask some direct questions.

I wish strength to all of us.

Hi Chivasilop, Thanks for

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On January 29th, 2008 Vadim says:

Hi Chivasilop,

Thanks for sharing,

Yes, I think it's so important to investigate how little do we really know, how little we can really do and from that basic understanding, keep learning new things in the frame of humbleness.

Good luck with investigations for all,

Vadim

It sounds like you're really

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On January 29th, 2008 Justin says:

It sounds like you're really exploring the psyche and making some changes.

That's never easy, but I hope you get something really worthwhile out of your efforts. I enjoyed reading about them!

The focus on balancing the centres is very important I've found.

Much strength to you.

Thanks for the comments.

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On January 29th, 2008 chivasilop says:

Thanks for the comments. It's a very interesting journey and it's nice to see other people also try their best to it.

so do you use any specific

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On February 9th, 2008 jahfonde says:

so do you use any specific meditation, to eliminate these egos? because theres many i have to get rid of, i need major help.

Hi. The meditation on an ego

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On February 11th, 2008 chivasilop says:

Hi.
The meditation on an ego is the method I practice and investigate these days, which includes elimination via the Divine Mother pray at the end. There are specific steps on this one, and i find that this works when you feel and sense what you are doing (i.e. not mechanically). Yer, many times and I suppose that this comes through practice and investigation, I manage to recognize various forms of egos during daily activities (like working, socializing, in family and more). But I am still on the beginning and I do not think that I am in the position to advice someone on something. I suggest that practicing constantly (in a correct way and manner) and always eager to understand things is something that one must do. I used not to do it constantly yet in the last days I find out that this is the only way and I try to build a rythm in my work.

The out-of-mediation practice I use as an elimination method is to be in the moment, aware and use of the pray for the Divine Mother constantly.

There are a lot of things for me to learn and practice and the catch is NOT to think that I understand through mind but with intuition. Many times I see this happen (the first one :-)) and many times I get advice on this. It is a very tricky thing.

I find out out, during these last 4 weeks that pride and egos that are covered in "good" smoke are many times great obstacles and very difficult to see (instead of those that are clothed with "bad" feelings and which someone can locate relatively quick).

I find this journey fascinating despite all the issues and problems we encounter. If we see them as issues...

I wish for all courage, strength and never stop to research and investigate everything.