Hello MikeL- great idea,

I think the first time ever I found that true profound awareness was about six months in to my return to the Gnostic work. I had been working pretty hard from my restart day with each day being compromised predominately of spiritual practices.
I found myself on my knees this day praying with great remorse, pleading for help and guidance with my eyes squeezed hard shut and head bowed in supplication. There was such a turmoil within and yet great yearning. I looked up as I finished.
My vision was blurred through tears yet as they cleared and proper sight came to, so did something else. In a slowly increasing wave an utter stillness came over me. Such utter stillness, it felt like an ocean stopped in its turning, a world of cities completely still, a planet paused in orbit. In that one instant that there was nothing came everything. Peace such utter peace, and a feeling of such a profound magnitude it was like looking at eternity.
I have never known true reality until that moment and I have only known it since in the few blessed times I have been able to get it back.
The state is never the same twice and sometimes is utter love, sometimes utter bliss or sometimes things that I do not know have words.
The funny thing was this state was of such a profound nature I did not think it was awareness :-). I thought it was some other mystical thing that was part of this work in some way shape or form.
I will pursue the rest of my life to gain just another taste of that or better yet- attain it indefinitely. I am incredibly thankful to have found these teachings that have taught these things accurately and that I have been helped so much in pursuing them.
I wish everyone the utmost strength to fight to feel what it is to be aware as it will change ones life for ever and in one instant show the magnitude and Truth of what is Taught here.

All the best all.

Hello everyone,

Thank you for sharing your first experiences Mike and Adam, my first and only experience is similar to yours. I imagine that it is what Master Judas meant by "The Kiss of the Princess Sacnite" in the book "The Flight of the Feathered Serpent".

It has been several months since I have started to put to practice the material from the Astral Travel and Dreams and Self-Discovery courses. I was walking through down town area trying to be aware, surounded by many people when suddenly it hitted me. I say "hitted" because it was like a herubim have sended a flash which penatrated my whole being to the core.

Even now I can reproduce in my memory some tiniest detailes of what my senses have percieved during those moments, that is how intense awareness had enveloped me in its embrace.

It was shoked and did not know what to do with this tresure, I was everywhere and nowhere simoultaniously, I felt selfless and extremely light, I was the buildings and the people, the whole street was I.

So instead of praising the lord for such a gift I started to look at people from above, what in a short while must have stoped me from experiencing this bliss.

After that my life has acquired a center of gravity, which I constantly and consciously desire to feed, however, as some of you know, there are many things that drive us away which we have no choice but to confront.

It will be a pleasure to read all of the "lightning" experiences that you guys went through and bless you all.

Great to hear your experience Gyorgi,

I don't want to create any unrealistic expectations and therefore let downs so I'll just add quickly to my earlier post.
The actual feeling of awareness differs greatly and sometimes its not as intense as others yet still that door had been opened. For instance egos are seen and felt more easily but also qualities of the consciousness like intuition, and for me sometimes glimpses of other things become apparent where normally they wouldn't.
It might be that getting these states to the intensive profound level is given as a reward for large efforts or on that occasion the internal science was precise.
When it comes down to it I have found for myself just to be mindful that there is a magical way of being, of observing internally and externally that feels quite mystical. Then to seek it with a singular focus looking and feeling for its special signature and when finding something to try to go deeper and deeper within that. Not creating limitations with effort or ideas on what it should or should be just to go with what feels good and then building on it.
To be honest to get this going well doesn't happen that much for me but I don't often try with that utmost determination that it needs to dictates success and for 100% of the time.

Hoping to hear many more of Gyorgi's aptly labeled lightning experiences.

Thanks Mike for starting it, great idea!

Thanks for sharing, everyone!

My first experience with awareness, which I can remember, was after the practice of concentration on the dot on the wall.
I drew a dot and concentrated on it, trying to give my whole attention to it only.

I wanted to learn how to concentrate, how to control the mind disturbing me with a current of never ending thoughts and images, affecting negatively my life, life of the people close to me.

My mind was controlling me for years and caused so many problems and misfortunes.

So, now it was my turn.
During one of the practices I had to fight for concentration for a quite long period of the time, but the reward later was trully fantastic.

My eyes could see clearly, I felt like I never was really seing things, being stuck in my head.
I could feel peace, care about others and simple joy, a bit childish.

It was such a great experience and it encouraged me to continue with my practices of concentration.

Hi all,

I am trying to recall the first experience I had with awareness but as it was mentioned it depends on the egos and the quality of the consciousness at play then.I have shared that in the forum before but this was my most intensive awareness experience.I was in my village then and I felt I had to walk around and be alone so I decided to go where I spent my time as a child.I was walking on the path trying to feel every step I did towards the place trying to really be aware.Then I reached the grassy field and I began to feel the grass beneath my feet,the sun shining and the wind there ......it is somehow blurry to me right now but I had a feeling the walk more towards the view of the mountains.What I remember clearly right now is that I stop at one point and looked at what was in front of me, the field,the mountains,the sun,the air ........it looked so real and beautiful.Then I felt the presence of God in everything around me and the realization and the feeling was so intensive and I felt something in my heart moving, I felt God within me too and it made me cry.

Thanks for sharing your experiences! :) 

It actually took me a really long time to get awareness right. I had a lot of obstacles with my mind.

It was during the teacher's course and we were focusing on awareness that week. I was really feeling defeated and could not understand why I had so many problems with it. I decided to take extended awareness walks in a local park each day that I could. The first few were awful ;) I spent hours walking around trying to get to that state. I remember the first time I experienced it fully. I can remember the stretch of the park in which it occurred.

I felt 100% there. I felt objective and very strong. All of my anxiety and other egos that I struggled with were gone. I really felt like my inner being was present.

This helped me immensely. I was able to see how things could be. The memory of it helps me now - thanks Mike!

Wow, I love all those descriptions. Thanks so much for sharing, everyone!

Indeed, Adam, my experiences with awareness are usually not quite like that either. But I think that's what things could be like with significantly more spiritual development. Ordinarily I'd describe Awareness as a state of peace and inner rest - a time of clarity, still magical, but not as overwhelming as that experience.

Peace to all!

Mike

Hey everyone,

My first life changing experience with awareness probably sounds a little silly, but all I was doing was resting my hand on my wooden desk, and I found out that I'd never actually felt anything with my fingers before. It was a pretty amazing feeling just feeling with my fingers and I think I got a bit overwhelmed! :)

Once I also came back from an awareness walk, and went to do a concentration practice on my century plant, but I ended up just looking at it with an amazing feeling of peace, and seeing all it's colours intensely and in a way I don't think I'd seen it before. It was really beautiful and enjoyable.

It's funny (strange funny, not haha funny), when I can get those experiences they are amazing and all I want is to feel and experience that and always have it, and then I slip back really quickly into daily life and the usual habits and egos etc. Thanks for starting this post, it's made me remember what's really important!

Thanks everyone,
David

From reading this thread it was awesome for me to see again this link between all the practices like praying, being aware, concentrating, etc. and their core -exploring and investigating ways to activate consciousness and to keep this state.

Thanks to everyone, interesting thread!

Hi, good thread. I wonder why I didn't see it sooner.

I had some pretty lucid experiences with awareness from an early age, believe it or doubt it if you want but they're both the same...

In my infancy I was pretty clear headed and that is harder and harder to understand as you move farther away from such a state. Those super aware and clear times when I was learning to walk, and to see the world with a brain that is a blank page, is a vary special thing to remember. It 's a calm, still, peacefull and happy sensation.

Then things began to happen that I would just call bad.

Although I was never physically harmed by another human being, whoever/whatever else was going on caused me alot of misery. Life was not "happy" for some time. A lot of bad things manifested in me and I always felt like someone was stalking me or immediately right behind me.
So growing up, that state of awareness was lost pretty easy and anxiety and fear finds it's way in.

Now having learned alot about what awareness is because of gnosis and previous experience, I am able to reproduce that aware state more often.

True calm, still, peacefull awareness is so simple that it becomes infinitely complicated!
All you have to do is nothing - and that's the hardest of all. To turn everything off and just experience being.
You feel that connection with all things and come to understand exactly what God is and what is meant by "I am" or "I will be whatever I will be," The all-seeing "I." To experience eternity between each moment of time.

To be so aware, to just exist in that "I am now" state is beyond words. To love everything called good and evil both, because of supreme understanding in that state which can not be expressed in any way.
It is the most painful thing in the world to come away from this feeling or feel separate from it.

My few extemely lucid astral experiences mirror that kind of awareness, but it's more external and the senses are a bit different though.

The hardest thing is to not let the rest of the world suck you out of it.

If you walked around like that constantly, people would string you up on a cross too because they have no clue about awareness and being. Almost no one will ever know and you can probably count on one hand the number of people that will ever "master" it.

My hats off to the masters that can get away with this.