Hi Jake,

Welcome back!

Books by Samael Aun Weor and Belzebuub help me to keep my motivation.

How about this one from the "Revolutionary Psychology"?

"A man is what his life is. If a man doesn't modify anything within himself, if he doesn't radically transform his life, if he doesn't work upon himself, he is pitifully wasting his time"

What a mysterious thing life is, just the fact that you exist, think and feel is enough to question Why? Becoming interested in finding out who you really are Jake is very motivating, but it is so when you admit that you do not who you are, not in depth.

If I' am a god made creature, who is my creator? What I was created for? What is this whole bussines of life/death is all about?

If you become interested in this, you have enough motivation for the rest of your life.

In Matthew 24, Jesus says:

No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.

Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time? It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns. I tell you the truth, he will put him in charge of all his possessions. But suppose that servant is wicked and says to himself, 'My master is staying away a long time,' and he then begins to beat his fellow servants and to eat and drink with drunkards. The master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he is not aware of. He will cut him to pieces and assign him a place with the hypocrites, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Hello Jake,

Its good to see you back. Its the nature of these things that after a while more effort needs to be put in to achieve and see more. Its often at these times that it is most painful and the most difficult, but, if we do push forward we can gain something very very special.
Hold in there mate and as well as looking into what the others here have generously posted try different approaches to the same things.
We are only limited by our belief in our possibilities and the efforts we will put in to see those possibilities come to be.

All the best.
P.S. Thanks Jim I got a lot out of that.

WEll i am veary sorry i have not ben on for a wile i just toaly forgot to check my replies and schoolework was ppielinhg up because i had surgury i had apendisites and my apendix bursted and it made an abses im am still curently recovering about a week ago i had my surgury

well anyways back to the matter at hand i was waching some of others people experinces on the videos provided and i was amoazed and it gave me some motivation and now i realy want to do it but sadly i cant for today or mabe tomorow because christmas and that my aunt and uncle are here

Hey Jake,

Sorry to hear about your operation. I hope your on the mend and feeling 100 percent soon.
Merry Christmas and have a lovely holiday break.

well sorry to say im going back to the hospital i might have devloped another abses and might need a operation so sadly i wontbe ablee to practice ap due to pain

But you can practice awareness and get successes in lucid dreaming which isn't bad too! ;)

Wish you all the best and to recover soon! 

I hope you have a speedy recovery mate.

Here's a quote from The Flight of the Feathered Serpent that inspires me, "we don't realise how important it is to know what we want to do."

well im back at home fealing better =D
and while i was at hospital iw as practising concentration

im getting better
and thanks for help